where other than here?

where would i rather be

than here?

for where other than here

can there be all

all that can be sought,

wanted,

hoped for,

than here…

for here

right here

You are. You the I of all I Am.

and would i not rather be

an usher at your door,*

a beholder, a welcomer, a watch

to herald, receive, witness, embrace

all that You call forth,

all that You send?

than any possible other thing?

this is no dormant day

no grasping, bated breath of wondering

whether good will come,

whether my time will come,

when things will be what they were meant to be,

watch,

see,

behold,

usher,

give thanks,

say yes,

open your eyes

the great Giver gives,

you are that giving,

the giving is given

no strings,

never fettered,

intended,

meant,

adored,

received

utter uttering praise

*I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God. Psalms 84:10

when it comes to contentment…

when will it be

and what does it look like

and what is it made of

and how can we find it

and will we even know what it is

isn’t it like faith

an undergirding presence trying to make its way to the light

inner inklings that guide us like waymarks in the dark

isn’t it like hope

the fresh springing within us, the involuntary impulse to be

doors and windows inviting us to open

isn’t it love

the gentle breath of approval hovering ever beneath harsh, dark thoughts of despair

an embrace of air, of life, of stars, of trees that sing our place among them

here in this space, where loneliness, where longing, where hunger try to consume all light…

here in this very place, enough, presence, grace, abiding, to share. enough to drink and drink beyond our fill, with more left over than we can see, with more to give, with more to love, with more to live.

contentment has no strings, belongs to no body, no thing, but rises up, the essence we are within us to own this now, this here, and to spill its sweet presence all around us. no strings, no space, just the pressing presence of faith that nudges us, hope that encourages, and love that reminds and reminds and reminds us that we are loved, and of Love, and through Love, and in Love.

I love this poem by e.e. cummings:

     why
     do the
     fingers 

     of the lit
     tle once beau
     tiful la 

     dy(sitting sew
     ing at an o
     pen window this
     fine morning)fly 

     instead of dancing
     are they possibly
     afraid that life is
     running away from
     them(i wonder)or 

     isnt't she a
     ware that life(who
     never grows old)
     is always beau 

     tiful and
     that nobod
     y beauti 

     ful ev
     er hur 

     ries